i wonder will u always visit here, to see if there is any update from me, i am happy to see that u made a post in this our own website, silly piggy. i am thinking, am i really want to let you go? the one who loved me so much, the one who care and cared me so much, the one who will do anything for me if i ask for, the best gf i ever have. u asked me, i still love you? yes i am, love the one who love me so much. i admit i put too much time on game, movie my own stuff, i not care like u care about me so much, to think that maybe u let me go n i let u go also might be a good way for us, to continue our own life, like i said you should find a people that he can take good care of you, i am still childish, still playful. really think that one day we might wearing the couple tee and walking on the street, and its so funny people look at us and have these words in their mind " flower on shit". thats from a chinese words. i laughing when i saw that 2 shirt. so nice and so funny. that day might not be come, too playful until ignore my own gf. maybe this is the end of our relationship.

my small lady

yesterday when i say "like black bf", but i not mean to it.. i just unhappy when i need something from you, but you said u gave it to someone, n i think that if i am you, i will leave it all to you. i am upset, when i upset, i want to hide, coz i don wan say something not good when i am upset. when i upset, i will go do other thing, like watching crayon shin chan n view people profile. i like when u trying to make me happy, i like when u be my small lady, when i am leading, you quite n follow me, when i angry u will make effort to make me happy.

i wan you... my small lady...

BoxShop

hmm... this few days, i'm keep thinking about me and about you, each of our past and future, i feel like i keep wasting you time, keeping you from the others, make you cant find a really good guy that can look after you, i am still small, still studying someone, don know when i can be financially independent, stable income. i know that i will not become an engineer for all my life, engineer just starting, i want to become a business man.. hmm.. start thinking how to increase my income... but anything just "talk" if i am still not graduate...

i am thinking to start this business in Miri Sarawak, because Sarawak still don have this kind of shop. its a shop that u can rent a box or shelf to sell your thing.. 

 another example picture in sungai wang

this is a shop that closed don know when, its because some staff inside stole the thing that customer put inside the box, i should learn from this....

fey, i am keep thinking about you, am thinking how are you know, cant see ur update on anywhere, dgn fb... fey u be my tauke niong if one day i become a tauke#2

Crayon shin chan

watching crayon shin chan now, make me think like how is my future life with my wife and our child, life must be hard, but they still got lots of fun, shin chan is naughty but their parent still love him, a child cartoon but make me so sweet now, thinking of i am still not financial independent, i feel so useless, hmm.... a real family life seems still far for me. for me, at least i want my family not to face financial problem, i have to fully financial independent then i will just have my own child, thats what i am thinking. i am thinking u as my little wifey, waiting me back from work, cook some nice food for me.. hmm.. how sweet... but seems so far.. far far

silly piggy ^@^

  






                          silly piggy!!

之前还称赞一个朋友说：“你是有点点厉害，可以找到一个那么远的女孩。”

但是，貌似我更厉害，认识了一很遥远的女孩，是做梦都没有梦到过的遥远，澳洲。

她，很厉害，经历了一般人所想不到的事，微笑背后，是有那么一些故事。

跟她也是在游戏里认识，只是觉得这个女孩很可爱，从她身上，我有甜甜蜜蜜的感觉，游戏有她让我不孤单，有人陪我打怪，有人陪我练级，真的很不错一下。就是有一天，她说有个人要date她，我没说话，跑到她面前，把她date掉，从此，sophia, you're mine.

至今，在一起以半年，都是在电话上联络，晚上会在一起video call，白天会sms。彼此都在等一个机会，一个机会，让彼此见面，不用对着冰冷的电话荧幕。fey，reallly wan to see you. but no through phone. want to hold your hand when we walking around, want to hug u while we sleep together, want to knock ur little head while u think too much.

i am really happy that my lovely sophia fey fey come to see me finally, which i keep thinking for the half year before, until i cant sleep at the night before she came. the day finally come, a skinny, not really tall, the girl that i love coming to me, until i forgot to hold her hand. that night is day that we cant forget. its the first day i see you, the 1st day i drive to brunei, the first day my car broken down in half way, plus the heavy rain, how bad luck is it? i was thinking, is it i used all of my luck on you? yea it is, i pay the luck just for u to come.

remember the day we together in miri, it was so sweet n happy. finally i can have dinner with my love one, hold my love one when we shopping, drink chocolate with her, play with her. she so lazy until she wan me to carry her to bathroom, omg... i got lazy piggy. but fey, i am so willing to do so, now there is only u in my heart, i mean it. u r the one i care now, the other thing i am lazy to bother, or i am already forgot that. i should bring u to more place to walk walk, sorry fey, just something make me sleep so much... >@< at the last day i just remember i should bring you to crocodile farm, i forgot crocodile farm for 1 weeek.. omg..

the last day, i will remember the last day, we lost in brunei for hour, i am the 1 driving, n you r the one to find the way out. fey fey sorry to make you so tired that night, but i really precious everyday we together specially the last day, and the last morning. the last breakfast we had together. i feel so sweet to have you as my piggy girl friend. the one who really care about me, even in her dream, i am always in her dream, u re such a silly piggy, i love my silly one.. coz more cute ma....

the last moment, i will always remember, we hug, and we leave the hotel, in the airport, we sit together, talking, holding your hand, time passsing, and finally u have to go to the boarding room, at first i feel nothing, but when the door closing, staring at your back view, i feel like cry, i feel my leg getting heavier when i stepping out from the airport, the moment that we together in past few days come to my mine, and now... my piggy is leaving.. we cant see each other for few month perhaps... i feel lonely... because my piggy is not with me....

the night my fey leave.. i feel lonely and emo... and decided to get webcam so that i can see piggy more often even from monitor, fey, really don wan u get upset for that, its passed.. and i am sorry because i always take no important for it, i forgot it because its has nothing for me.. but in the meantime, i forgot ur feeling to it also, i admit i am wrong.. just want you to forgiv me... back to my silly piggy that will dream of me to carry her to her bathroom. and i will always remember the 1st birthday u with me, in the most weird place, the weird moment, the weird feeling.

to my most lovely piggy, i love you and i really want to hug u now, but i feel helpless i cant do anything... and i am so tired to rush 2 week work just in this 3 days, i am tired fey, can i sleep? haha.. fey.. just don wan u cry.... lov you, fey... from your babe..

i wish really wish u were here when i back from work.. u just wait me with ur cooking. help me wash my stinky cloth~~~

3.6.2012

hmm... just realized that my birthday is today, which remind me of that day i was celebrate your birthday in a special place... too bad i celebrate my birthday with book paper pen and my ruler...

maybe i should go starbuck tomorrow, study there n get a nice mug of coffee for myself... happy birthday to me~

feyfey, wish u here...

i wan go here... with you... 

~~kohlipe~~

you know? there are many place i wan to go with you. will u go with me??

i got injured, twisted my ankle, cant do anything, tell my girlfriend, but she like not care, what i hope atleast she can do some sweet talk with me, asking me if still feel pain, but what i feel is she is bz her own things. now i only alone, useless, cant do anything..... laying on my bed, waiting to die of hungriness.

"ignored"

i don know since what time, when i tell u my feeling.... u will just ignore me, then i upset, then we not talking for sometime, then u back to me like nothing happen.. this thing just keep repeating...
no more sweet word when i upset, no more care when i upset, u just "up to me"
maybe its up to me to upset, to sad, to happy.. "up to you" i was thinking i use this "up to you" correctly, make sure i don use it at the wrong time, because i know... its hurt...

dragonica ending soon, will that happen on our relationship also??

went to drink with friend last night, even i was smiling and laughing with them, even i am drunk, i am still worry about my girlfriend as who din reply me for since the evening. i was worry something worry about her, and i decide to call her at midnight which i hope she will call me after she saw that missed call and a message. i back to home at around 3am, and i slept right after back home, i am so drunk and tired that time. in the morning i was awake by three calls, three time disappointing come with that 3 call because i hope i can see your name appear on my phone screen but its not your name, but my mum. finally the 4th call is from you, finally. but i feel a bit unhappy after that, i ask you "should i angry". i will try not to silent attack as u said u don like that before. so i ask that and hope you can make me smile again. and u should know its so easy to make your bf smile but u not doing that, what ur respond to it is making ur bf think that u not care anymore, making he think that he is stupid to worry about you all the day.when i asking should i angry? obviously i am giving chance to you to not let me not angry. when i asking this question, i hope that my gf will do some sweet talk with me, but in reality, she is always come out with the words "up to you". when i hear this, i feel that this girl not care about me anymore. n you wet my eyes this time. fey, a couple should have some personal time to do their thing, but this not mean that there not loving each other, to give each other some space will improve the quality of the relationship and also make this relationship longer, and don say u bothering me or what, i tell you, u r not. poor english make me hard to pass my message to you, but still i hope that u can get my message, i am still love you, i am still wan you to become my gf, i don wan the day of the end of our relationship come.

this is the blog only you and me....

sophia and water